Sound from my Soul
Desember 1st, 2006 by shanti
Dear Lord,
I don’t know why God, But it seems like this is the hardest month in my life. I never feel this lonely before, even when he left me and abandon me, I feel this is the time when I should talk to him, that this is wrong, I cant continue this relationship because deep down in side may heart, I know that he doesn’t love me anymore.
I know that he loves another woman, and I know that the feeling is so strong, I don’t want to fight with it, I know that it will be useless.
O Dear Lord,
I just want to ask you, please give me strength to face this reality, give me courage, and give me a brave and strong heart to talk to him. Please help me so I can go on, move on, and walk my own way, let You lead my way, and please take this fear away, take this worries, take this tears so I can face the world. I want to be a tough girl God, I want You to be proud of me.
Dear Father in Heaven,
I know you will not lead me to the temptation that I can’t afford, I know every single of my problem that come to my life has a meaning, You teach me to be more mature.
This is hard O God, real hard; I don’t know what I should do. I don’t know how to deal with it. I don’t understand what the lesson I should learn through this.
Please God, help me. I can’t stand it any longer. Please tell me what I should do. I can face his anger, his bad habit and lack character. But I can’t afford not being love. I know he doesn’t love me anymore. I know he loves another girl. I am not in his mind now. I don’t want to be hurt again o dear Lord, I don’t want to cry anymore. I don’t want to be abandoning anymore, I must take a decision. Its hard o God, please help me. Please don’t leave me. Only You can help me to get away from this situation. If I have to loose him, please give me strength to live without him. I want him to be happy, but I need my own happiness also. I need you a dear Lord, to tell me what I should do. I want to talk to him, but I know I will not have enough courage to leave him.
One thing for sure, I know you will never leave me. You just same in past, now and in the future. You never change, that’s why I come to You, o my Lord, I know you will help me. You will be with me, always. Please God, help me. Don’t leave me, I need you. You are my hiding place, a center of my life. I will make a big, big decision. Maybe I will keep silent, want to give myself some time to think, oh God, I feel much better now, cause I know you are with me.
I will have a time for myself and for him. I know, you will be with me. What should I afraid of? He can go, I can also, people come and go, but you always with me. I love you God. Thank you for your love for me. I don’t need anything else. You have provided all things I need. So, what should I cry of? You know the best for me. Thank you God. Amen.